such a yoyo.

binge.
purge.
binge
purge
binge purge
binge purge binge purge bingepurgebingepurgebinge and purge.
that was all i did for the last two hours.
at least i threw most of it back up, but i still feel horrible.
purging should not be an excuse to pig out! ugh.
i hate the way i look, i hate being a fat disgusting whale. and yet, i do the one thing that is going to keep me that way.  what i need is more motivation, and the right mindset to do one looong fast. the first few days are always the hardest, after that its easy peasy. the first step is always the hardest.

here's hoping tomorrow will be a better day.