just take it one day at a time.
something i've never been able to do.
i've always just been looking too far ahead, and been too impatient.
that hasn't got me anywhere.
so, i'm just going to try to focus on each day one at a time, as they come, and make each one better than the one before.
today wasn't great, but it was considerably better than yesterday, and that's what i'm focusing on.
i had been planning to fast, but my grandparents came to visit, and of course they brought chocolate and food, ugh. and then i had to cook for them and the rest of the family, and i ended up eating some of that too. i tried purging, but i just couldn't get much up, my throat was so sore.
but still, it was an improvement from yesterday, and tomorrow is going to be better than today.
i am strong, and i can do this.
i will be thin, and i will be perfect.
That 2011 thing is cute. I focus on the past rather then the now almost all the time. It's so hard to just focus on the present when the past makes the present but if you look at it from now, now will be the past one day and then the future will be the present and the now is what will make that present if that makes any since to you. I just thought of that and it makes me just want to focus on now. I ate a lot over Easter weekend. and today ugh left overs but tomorrow, I'm done again. No more food.
ReplyDeleteyeah, holidays are hell, having to spend time with family, and because of that having to eat.
ReplyDeletebut at least it's all done now, and we can all get back to our eating plans, thank god.
hope you're doing well love (: